Tuesday, September 30, 2008

the 12 days of marriage

I don't know if any of you have been on the wedding website lately to see the wedding countdown... well if you have then you know that I will legally, officially, ETERNALLY be Mrs. Brian Todd Williams in less than two weeks. 11 days to be exact. My time as an engaged individual will come to an end and I will sooner than later wear two rings, talk about scrapbooks and coupons, and work in the primary. I will be the real deal... a married lady.

Can I just tell you something? Can I be really honest with you?? Even though I have been an awful blogger will you still listen? Like...really listen to me? Okay, thanks.

So this is what I am going to tell you: Being engaged has been a difficult time for the ol' agf/atw (that's me!) I won't go into all of the gritty details that have made this a wild time but I will say that difficulties associated with being engaged caught me off guard. For such a long time I felt discouraged by the way I reacted. I felt the same sense of discouragement I felt in high school after loosing a tennis match, or how I felt freshman year of college when I would always fail my physical science tests. I just want you, my very few readers to know that I am not discouraged anymore about our engagement, I feel really happy and exceptionally thankful for what Brian and I have experienced during this time.

While I was engaged I was able to learn so much about making choices. I learned that life is full of choices, all day long. We make so many everyday! And when we think we have to be a certain way... well usually that isn't true. We usually have a choice.

I learned a lot about love. I learned a lot about loving others, and even more about loving myself. I was reminded how many people I have who love me who have been around for years, just loving me all along. I learned these people really do hurt when I hurt and they are happy when I am happy. I also learned a lot about people who have recently entered my life who although they do not know everything about me, they want to love me just the same. Oh, I learned more about God's love, and that always feels good.

I learned a lot about Brian while we were engaged. He is really good at so many things. I learned that he is okay that I cry a lot (for example, I am in history class crying right now as I write this.. he is okay with that). I learned that he likes the generic brand of Lucky Charms just like I do. I learned that he will always listen to me. I learned that he knows how to pray, I learned that he prays for me. I learned that we will be happy no matter what happens during our life because we love one another, and we chose to be together because we will be happier and better together than apart from one another.

For all of you who helped me learn so much over these past 3 months I am writing you this really sentimental thank you note over my blogspot. So here you go, thanks. Thank you for helping me learn and being so patient with me. I love you.
I have to go wipe my nose now.

8 comments:

Brandon & Shelly said...

I can't wait for the next 12 days! You are going to be such a fun part of our family!!! Try not to stress and enjoy the next few days as much as possible. Lots of Love, ME

courtni said...

i love you.
...and almost called you 5 minutes ago but don't want to risk waking the almost bride...it's like 11pm in utah - you just never know...BUT this is why I wanted to call: Just saw a few wedding details on amorology...you are brilliant and the weddings you girls come up with - truly modern brides, makes me feel like a bride from the 1920's - before everything got fancy - but I'm a bride from 2003...not that long ago. I CAN'T WAIT FOR YOUR DAY!!!!!! Loved chatting yesterday. And "yes" I check your blog everyday.

Chad and Carly Carlson said...

Drea, I am so glad you are taking the lunge into the best friendship and experience of your life! I am so sad I won't be there.....Seriously I cried about it the other day. I miss you...I love you.. I think you are going to be the best roomate for Brian! Call me! If you have time :) I love you!

m.m. said...

i love you.

Alison said...

lil sister! getting married is the best. i love you.

Jake and Jenna said...

my heart is your heart.

Chelsea said...

being engaged is harder than it seems. i did a lot of crying for no apparent reason. ok, im going to add you to my blog roll so that i can keep up with all of your coupon tips and techiques once you are married!

rachel marie said...

you are such a sweetheart and i am so happy for you and your hubby to be! i wish you both a delicious lifetime of fun, adventure and of course LOVE!!! see you in a week!

xoxo

rachel marie